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Hi again!

2024-11-02T00:00:00Z

It's been a while. I feel like I have been scrolling more and creating less.

We moved, went to Japan, and I broke my website. While I work on restoring this website to its previous glory, I also want to redesign my stylesheet... so I might just do away with a lot of my old content...

While I get back to tinkering on this page again, I wanted to break the ice with this short post. Writing posts is a lot more fun than trying to remember how I structured my files...

In the meantime I hope you all are doing well. xoxox

My first YouTube video :') a tour of my tarot deck collection

2024-06-16T00:00:00Z

Hehe, just wanted to share here that I made my first youtube video.

I called in sick to work today because of my period

2024-06-13T00:00:00Z

I callled in sick to my job today because of my period. I did attend a few meetings and handled a fraction of the avalanche of emails that are stressing me out, but for some reason I feel like it was dishonest to call in sick. I did not realize that my hormones would become such a reoccurring topic on my blog, but here we are with another period post.

I did not sleep all night because I was uncomfortable (not in horrible pain, which I was happy to notice), I was dealing with mild cramps this morning. And today, because I trying not to cry my eyes out because my husband is leaving for a two and a half week trip to see his extended family in Europe. (Don't comment on my commas I'm trying to take advice from Ursula Le Guin). I also spent most of last night and today feeling like I was cleaning up a crime scene every hour. So I called in sick.

I worked a little. Washed my pajamas (again), worked a little bit, watched Bridgerton, went for a walk (because my middle school gym teacher said it would help), picked up snacks on the way home, took a shower, and watched more Bridgerton. It feels like I took a day off and lied by using sick time. But I did feel sick. And I did the things that I knew would make me feel better just like if I had the flu.

For the flu: i prescribe robitussin, lots of blankets, soup, and netflix
For day 2 of your period: i prescribe trying to do something at your day job, calling in sick, making your cat be a hot water bottle, getting out your actual hot water bottle, sharing your hot water bottle. light exercise (gym teacher said so), snacks (i said so), and watching your favorite show. And also, deal with the debilitating pain, weird emotions, and constant gross feeling.
For saying goodbye to your spouse for two and half weeks, I prescribe spending as much time with them as you can before they leave.

Yeah, I called in sick today, and I really do feel like it was necessary.

I am on a productivity soul-searching journey

2024-05-25T00:00:00Z

I am still slowly making my way through my Johnny.Decimal workbook. My mission was simple, organize my Notion using the numbering system so that I could find my databases easier. For a week, I was basically tracking my entire life with a huge kanban board for all of my work and life tasks, thoughts, and reminders. I tried not to categorize everything to start and just let everything mix together and exist in one big list.

I quickly became overwhelmed. So I made a work and not-work section, and then I started filtering out things that I marked as finished just because it was starting to get confusing. My week of experimentation was over. All of my databases and dashboards were all stored in a page called “Everything else,” and I was ready to start to categorize my Notion. But then I started to doubt if Notion is really the right home for everything.

For the time being, I dusted off my old Todoist account and migrated over my little collection of unfinished tasks and thoughts, and started to look at the rest of my digital world. There’s my personal computer, my work computer, my google drive, I have an administrative sharepoint folder at work as well, several different notes apps, and tons of physical notebooks that need to be archived. I realized that the scope of my project was way bigger than my Notion.

I was hoping that at this point I would have a new iteration to show for my efforts. For now, all I have is this incomplete list of tools that I use:

I also finally started reading David Allen’s Getting Things Done... This has quickly turned into a soul-searching effort. Productivity is not something that I like thinking about too much, but I am also trying to have a system that I can trust. I will continue to document my journey.

All of May 2024, I will be participating in weblog posting month created by Apple Annie

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Post 19/31

these last two weeks were insane and i'm still thinking about my run

2024-05-23T00:00:00Z

I can't believe it's been so long since I posted. Normally, I would say this is more like my target posting cadence, but I did sign up for a daily posting challenge this month. I am feeling a little bit bummed that I didn't totally make it to a full 30 days. Two weeks of consistent posting is something to be proud of, and things got pretty crazy. So, it's all good. I plan to try my best to finish the month out strong.

Last week was getting my period back and preparing for a scary meeting. This week was my scary meeting. At the end of the last few days, I have prety much only had the energy to eat something and watch One Piece. I needed to take something off of my plate, and pausing on a writing challenge was the easy pick.

This post is not to beat myself up, but I do think that my feelings about consistency are changing. I was thinking about this on my run last weekend because I used to be really hard on myself about my running consistency. I would basically tell myself that my inability to get in my short training runs and speed workouts on the weekdays meant that I didn't deserve to go on beautiful long runs on weekends. It's a silly way to think about it, but it really felt that way.

I also used to spend my training blocks leading up to races doing the same thing. Afraid that I will get kicked off the course (it could still happen!) or whatever because I didn't follow my plan perfectly. I always find myself shocked when my race results come back and learnt that I finished solidly in the middleth place. I have done maybe 10? races since I started running and that has always been the case. If I look at my results objectively, I should be able to say that I am an average runner. I just feel slow because I am obsessed with Strava and I just seem unserious compared to my mutuals.

It feels so silly to be so hard on myself and not let myself enjoy a day, make myself feel like I don't deserve to be there just to find out that I'm just like everyone else! I have been really enjoying reading other people's blogs and plenty of others have taken breaks this month or had to scale back the scope of their posts. It's okay to do things not perfectly.

I am beginning to see the impact that perfectionism has had on my mental well being. I would classify myself as very high performing in my professional life, I set very high standards for myself. I am trying to relax a lot of bit in my worklife. But even in my leisure time, I still have this expectation for excellence that I really don't need.

This is my 18th silly little post and at some point this week I will go on a silly little run. I got just as much out of writing this one post this week as I will with my run, and that's enough for me. If I do anything else, it's a bonus.

All of May 2024, I will be participating in weblog posting month created by Apple Annie

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Post 18/31

running diary - lake chabot, ca

2024-05-18T00:00:00Z

Today I went for a run in lake chabot. It ended up being about 8.6 miles with 900 feet of elevation gain. The first half was very difficult, pretty much up hill the whole way. Maybe the last two or three miles went back to being flat. I had an amazing time, it has been two years since I did that run.

All of May 2024, I will be participating in weblog posting month created by Apple Annie

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Post 17/31

a week in review

2024-05-17T00:00:00Z

What a Week

I had an intense week this week. Big presentation, big deadlines, big conversations, socialized this week, and I got my period for the first time in years. I was not prepared. I think I might have lost my therapist? I’m not sure, I’m confused. This was such a hard week, that I couldn’t really do anything about it. I missed my post for yesterday, and I’m okay with that. Something had to give.

I think the combination of all of the above put me in a bit of a shopping relapse. Nothing too bad, but I feel a little sad. I mostly bought digital things, which is a little weird.

Biggest win

Stuck up for myself at work!

Recent Favorites

I have been loving Shogun. I pretty much ripped through all of Bridgerton Season 3 Part 1 in one sitting. We are rewatching Better Call Saul as well.

I haven’t been reading much outside of productivity books. I am on a bit of a life overhaul kick.

Weekend Project Ideas

I think I’m happy with the content (for now) on my front page. So, I think my next project will be to edit the blog front page a little bit. I want to organize my novel a little bit. I am also thinking about going for a little bit of a train run!

All of May 2024, I will be participating in weblog posting month created by Apple Annie

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For a list of my topic ideas and blog/weblogpomo2024/some rules I wrote for myself, go here

Post 16/31

having a body is weird!

2024-05-15T00:00:00Z

got my period back after 4 years

thank u for your service, mirena <3

All of May 2024, I will be participating in weblog posting month created by Apple Annie

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For a list of my topic ideas and blog/weblogpomo2024/some rules I wrote for myself, go here

Post 15/31

johnny.decimal update

2024-05-14T00:00:00Z

My first week experimenting with the johnny.decimal system and following the steps in the workbook has been really interesting! I have been trying my best to refrain from categorizing my stickies and just let them all sit there, but halfway into my tuesday, i decided to just make an inbox section, a work section, and a not work section. anything that pops into my head, things i need to do, places i want to be able to find things, where i usually keep stuff, random thoughts. so far there are three different sticky notes about minotaurs...

All of May 2024, I will be participating in weblog posting month created by Apple Annie

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Post 14/31

crochet project - neon coasters

2024-05-13T00:00:00Z

Long day, here are some coasters that I made over the weekend!

Find the pattern (free!) here.

All of May 2024, I will be participating in weblog posting month created by Apple Annie

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Post 12/31